Last Holiday – My mini-bucket list

I was watching Last Holiday right now and thinking that even at the age of 80 if I liquidate everything I have, I wont be able to afford the hotel and the things she does and winning a 100K at roulette, never possible even in a 100 lives. But keeping that aside, the movie got me thinking, if I had a false alarm like her and was told that was dying in a few weeks, what all I’d like to do with my liquidated savings and time:

  • Get a dog: My husband always says we’ll get a dog one day when we have our own house and some time on hand. I find dogs cute but am scared of them. I want to get a dog, not to get rid of my fear, but experience with my husband the fun of living with a pet.
  • Boardgames: As kids, me, my sister, and my parents, we used to play lot of board games and cards on weekends. Being a gujju family, we still get together for cards but board games we’ve stopped. I want to spend atleast an hour everyday playing board games with my entire family. Whether they like it or not (ahem,  ahem, hubby dear!)
  • Swim: I wanna go back to the RMC pool in racecourse, back home and go back to that VIP batch to swim for 45 minutes in peace. I want my sister and dad to join me and mum to be by the poolside like she used to be when we were in school.
  • Photo session: As a kid I wanted to be a model, I think it was more my aunt’s dream than mine. My Masi was learning photography in her college and whenever she’d come home, she’d experiment on me. It used to be a full day photo shoot complete with exotic costumes, make-up, props etc. I want to spend that one day again with Masi, not to feel pretty (probably a little to feel pretty;) but mainly to relive those fun memories with my aunt again.
  • Goa with girlfriends: Made this plan many times but it never materialized  so am sure if I threaten my GFs with my impending death they’ll plan up Goa again 🙂
  • Paris: Being a die-hard romantic and an out-and-out Mills & Boonsy girl, it’ll be  a shame if I don’t use my life’s savings to go to France and Italy (especially Paris, Rome, and Venice) with my husband. My list of places to visit is long, but like I said, I don’t have the money (am only blowing my life’s savings, not my husband’s).

Once I finish the above, I hope to have created some wonderful memories and experiences and since I won’t be dying anytime soon, it’ll be time to start fresh; to start earning again; to get back to the daily grind of home and office but with the knowledge that I had my fun with my family, friends and my money. And when I actually do die, atleast these things would be off my ‘wanted-to-do-but-couldn’t-do’ regret list 😀


I fell off the wagon!

fell off the wagon1You must be thinking that I’m an alcoholic or a drug addict trying to kick the habit but it’s not so bad. However, I am not that good either; on numerous occasions I’ve succumbed to petty addictions and urges and in my eyes that’s falling off the wagon. Re-counting some of the worse ones (my family will be able to tell you many more instances):

  • Mentos: After my MBA I was recruited by a big MNC and just like every big company, we had a 3-week long induction at a fancy, high-end hotel. In our training rooms we had Mentos on our table and the worse part, the hotel staff constantly re-filled the bowl.  As you’d have guessed, I got addicted to Mentos and it took me a long time before my shopping was Mentos-free. Till date, it’s a challenge for me to stand at supermarket cash counters n win a staring match with Mentos without picking them up.
  • Mills & Boons: My biggest weakness. Whether am travelling, or visiting a book store or flipkart, or going into a friend’s hostel room, I can’t resist looking around for an M&B. I think I read all the M&Bs that the roadside vendors near my hostel carried. After my graduation, I decided, “time to grow up and kick the habit” and I was pretty successful for the two years I was doing my PG but my work took me to Mumbai again and I fell off the wagon. Then again, because of my wedding, etc. I successfully kicked the habit but one day a friend passed on some ebooks and there, the addiction started again. This time it was worse than before, after a full working day, I’d read non-stop in the office bus, and while making dinner, and even after my husband went to bed. I went through one book a day and on weekends it used to be atleast two. Over the last year, the intensity has reduced, but I still fall back on them when I’m too stressed or too bored.
  • Housewifey skills: Like any gujju girl, I’ve been raised in a spick and span house by a perfectionist and cleanliness-obsessed mom. When I got married, I thought I’d also keep my house neat and do all the wifey stuff. But ofcourse, I couldn’t get rid of miss laziness, my companion of 24 years. It started out with crazy cleaning of the rented house and some awesome arrangements but it wasn’t even two months before I fell off the cleanliness wagon. Now I’ve accepted my addiction to laziness and I make half-hearted attempts every week to clean up my house and these attempts become full-hearted only when my mom or masi are visiting me 😀

I’m not a risk taker and my these and several other transgressions continue to bother me. The reason am writing and putting this out there is to remind myself every now and then that I have a long way to go before I can come anywhere close to being a perfect and a good person.